...This Isn't Just The Story Of A Girl...
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Please refer to paragraph one...So, it seems like swine flu isn't the only epidemic going around these days. Grab your surgical masks and an encyclopedia or two, there is no vaccination against this...people seem to be catching a case of THE STUPIDS (also refered to as 'the dumb')! I'm not even kidding...it's either that, or, they were stupid before and I didn't realise it til now. I mean, there is only so much stupid one person can take. At this point I'm being bombarded by mind numbing stupidity at all angles..and I'm thinking "WHAT THE FUCK MAN!"
So, this morning I got woken up with wonderful news! I had to go to a funeral. SUCH FUN! (anyone who thinks I'm being serious in the last sentence, please refer to paragraph one...you have the stupids). Anyway...on the way back...a new Alannis song comes on the radio...I thought we purged the airwaves of her filth a milenna ago. Turn out...not so much. Sweetie, you made it big with the jagged little pill album, you're past your prime...please stop making music...you're turning into Céline Dion! On second thought...go do a stint in Vegas for ten years or so...
<3Ina
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Besides, everything you do now will make for a good story later...Why do I do the things I do? Someone asked me that today. I wasn't quite sure how to take that or how to answer it. I just told them "because I can"...and I meant it. I mean you're only young and stupid once, right? So, why not be young and stupid?!
Get in a long term relationship, get your heart broken, question your sexuality, get piss drunk, get high as a kite, make friends, lose friends, fall asleep on a city bus, take a random road trip, break a few bones, get addicted to a video game, ask someone to dance, buy someone a drink, have a conversation on a random staircase, try sushi, change your look, fall in love, learn to something...anything, watch the stars behind the airport, go camping, catch a fish with your bear hands, climb a few trees...and fall out, but most importantly, find out who you are. Besides, everything you do now will make for a good story later.
Even though I'm not one to give advice out in my blog, I'm going to do it anyways. Do something completely impulsive. Something that could make you feel like a complete idiot if it goes wrong, something that could embarrass the fuck out of you. Take a chance, because either way, it's worth it in the end.
<3Ina
Friday, April 17, 2009
MAN! I'm lame today....Facebook, twitter, msn, myspace, and xbox live. That pretty much sums up the last 2 days of my life. I haven't left my bed. GOOD ON ME!
I spend too much time thinking. It's true. I've said it before, and undoubtedly say it again.
People keep asking me "what's up" or "how are you doing?" today I'm just in the mood to say FUCK OFF. They try to make we laugh, but their efforts are wasted. MAN! I'm lame today....I should get out of bed...and head to bridgehead.
<3Ina
"I never took you for a trick, but sometimes, I don't know what you want...I can take it if you need to take this out on someone..."
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
You can't kill whats already dead...but you can try to resurrect it...So, I've had alot of time alone with my thoughts, and I know I've lost friendships before, but those we're females, and those were because of jealousy, stupidity or immaturity. BUT I've never actually lost one of my male friends before unless I cut him out. I know my Buddy Jordan went AWOL for awhile, but that's because one of his friends is a huge douche bag, and made up lies about me so he could have me for himself. Lucky for me, I didn't end up with said douche bag...because of his douche baggary, and the fact he was stupid jealous of every guy I ever came in contact with pre-courtship....but that's not the reason I'm writing this...I'm writing this because I realised something today.
I realised that everyone I've ever come in contact with can't say I'm a terrible person. They can't say I didn't make them smile at one point, or that I didn't make them think about life, or themselves, or the world. They can't say they didn't have fun, or that I'm not awesome. Sure, some of my ex boyfriends could call me crazy, but that's a general term for ex girlfriends, some of my ex friends can call me a bitch or a slut, but that's the females talking, and their perception of a slut is horribly misguided. Even if it was the males talking, I probably did something bitchy to them because I didn't want to associate with them anymore. BUT none of them can say that they regret any of the memories I gave them, or any of the time we spent hanging out at work, or school, or in a basement, or on my front lawn, or at a campsite, or at the beach, or in some random parking lot, or downtown Ottawa, or anywhere else for that matter. They can always look back and smile.
There is only one person like me in the world, and if there is another, she's a bold faced liar...there can only be one Ina Insanity, and she's a hot commodity....and an evil genius...and everyone whose ever known me, is lucky to have known me.
and I feel bad for all of you who don't want to know me anymore, but I guess you can't kill whats already dead...but you can try to resurrect it.
<3<3<3Ina
Friday, April 10, 2009
Unfortunately, can't write about my thoughts...It's Friday night...do you know where your Ina is?
I can tell you! She's in bed. Tonight i was propositioned twice to go out, but i worked 8 or so hours today and didn't feel like it. This may also have to do with the lack of sleep lately. So tonight I get to face the thoughts I've been putting out of my head all week by spending time with Lauren.
Unfortunately, can't write about my thoughts. Or feelings, or anything about my current situation. Last thing I need is another uncalled for angry text lashing from msn. If I'm even still on there.
Anyways, I'm possibly going to go to bed soon, and try to continue to put this shit out of my head, as non-sensory as it is.
Yeah, I lied. I'm human. I also didn't tell you all the details. It's none of your business.
You probably don't even read my notes anymore, and whatever that's fine. I miss it.
Maybe today we can put the past away...
<3Ina
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
alcohol induced dance coma night!So, my week has been shit so far, with a few sunny interludes. Tonight my aviators broke, and my cellphone seems to be favoring the number 8. I can't even text anymore. On the upside, I've paid off half my visa bill, and Italian sodas are awesome and make me smile.
Tomorrow I have a full day planned. Visiting Wafia, buying a barbie pink dress, possibly matching shoes, going to get new aviators, and planning an alcohol induced dance coma night! A barbie pink dress you say! Yes ma'am. I've decided to girlie it up. It always makes me feel better. Plus my sister got me a barbie pink bow, so I can double the sexy. AND as for the Alcohol Induced Coma Night...it's going to be a friends only event that will take place after exams, and more importantly when my KATE gets home :)! Grab your Id's and you're dancing shoes, cause if you're not drinking or dancing you may as well shut up and get out! I'm going all out, and we're going to have a bad ass time!
<3Ina
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
I'm not a poet...I'm not a poet, and this isn't a song...I just need to get some stuff out and decided to do it differently this time. So I don't care what you think, and Jim don't comment for the hell of it, you questions annoy me at times. Here we go...
I got a swagger in my step
and a smile on my face
My chin held high
like I own the place
Starbucks in my right hand
Cellphone in my left
My best friend by my side
Keeping me sane
I got my aviator shades
and my winter coat
I can pull this off
you can only hope
It's the beginning of April
they're snow of the ground
it doesn't make sense
it doesn't have to, somehow
In with the old
out with the new
Cruising down Richmond
Til we hit Broadview
Take a good look
at our old high school
and in the back of our minds
Scream out...fuck you...
That place was a prison
almost worse then the mind
We have alot of memories
We left alot behind
The friends
The classes
The Shenanigans
All the shit we used to get in
I miss those days
and the ones before boys
Before all the bullshit
And the background noise...
The wind doesn't bug me
The chill isn't that bad
I know someone colder
And for that, I'm glad
I'm gonna keep smiling
Keep laughing and having fun
Out of sight and always in mind
This is one thing I won't run from...
Sunday, April 5, 2009
First of all, fuck off...Holy fucking fuck! I just get home from a 35hour work weekend and I have 3 messages in my facebook inbox from people who are like "YOU DON'T TRUST ME ENOUGH TO TALK TO ME?!". First of all, fuck off, and second, Just because I told Matt I wanted to talk to someone I trust, doesn't mean I don't trust any of you, I just need to talk to him about something we've talked about for awhile, and if I want anyone else opinion...I'll ask them...FUCK!
Honestly, this hasn't been the greatest weekend of my life, and I'm still dealing with past shit, plus I'm sleep deprived, so all in all, I'm pretty fucking angry at the world right now...almost in a teen angst kind of way.
So, if you're going to be completely insensitive and try to ruin my week further, you can go fuck a lawnmower, but if you actually give a damn about how I feel, you're more than welcome to talk to me, just don't be pushy, I may bite your head off unintentionally.
I seriously am going to have a heart attack before I'm 25...
<3Ina
Thursday, April 2, 2009
I miss the cliché of the mixed tape...I miss the cliché age of the mixed tape...well, maybe not the age, but cliché of the act itself.
I went to Starbucks with Alex today...it's like my 4th or 5th Starbucks day in a row...and we we're talking about some things. I love Alex, we have a back story and everything, it's pretty sick. ANYWAYS, I usually go to him for advice, I swear to god he's the only person who gives it to me straight and then holds me right after when I cry and say "It's not fair". True story.
Uhm, yeah, so we got on the topic of songs and the movie High Fidelity, where Rob talks about making a mixed tape in his head for he girl he loves...which got me to thinking about how waaaay back in the 90's, guys did that for girls they liked, but we don't live in the 90's, and soon the cd will be extinct...so what do we do? Make an Itunes play list of stuff we think they'll like? What if they don't have Itunes? Make a windows media player list? or perhaps throw mp3's on a usb key, in an email...or hell, even use a cd? If you do use a cd, they'll just burn it onto their computer anyway...I'm over thinking things...the point I'm getting at is I miss the gesture of some guy going out of his way to make a mixed tape or whatever for the girl he likes that has songs about how he feels about her on it.
But I'm just a romantic that misses the classics.
<3Ina
So here are 10 things I want to do before summer is over:
1. Pick a number between 1 and 200 and ride the corresponding bus to the end of the line...and try to find my way back.
2. Make friends with a random.
3. Work at a club downtown.
4. Learn how to play guitar
5. Sing at an open mic night.
6. "Borrow" one of Don's hats for the summer...
7. Go hiking
8. Take 100 amazing pictures and put them in an album
9.Go to PEI or BC....somewhere on a coast
10. Go tent camping
That's my summer list and I intend to get through it...what do you wanna do?
<3Ina
