...This Isn't Just The Story Of A Girl...
Monday, February 2, 2009
PREP NIGHT...The Saga Continues...So after fucking up my attempt at taping the 6'o'clock news (that a big EPIC FAIL for me)I'm alone in the control room awaiting the 11:30 NEWS. Bravo Ina, bravo.
In all honesty, it's been hard to concentrate. My ex is dating again. I know it shouldn't bug me (and this is the second time I mention it)but it does. He told me he didn't want a committed relationship and now he's got a girlfriend. I've pretty much been crying on and off all weekend. I know, I know..."grow the fuck up, it's his loss, blah blah blah..." well it's hard to forget someone you loved...and someone you lost your virginity too. I know it's not a big deal to most people, but I'm not most people. Sometimes I wish I was a guy, because then I could turn my emotions off. And I could be exatly like him and hate. I know my ex hates me, and I know I'm still bitter. I'm not jealous of her, I'm just pissed off...and a little confused.
I've noticed this blog does more harm then good, but frankly, I don't care. This blog is the reason my ex hates me. The reason Ashley is mad at me, and probably the cause of alot of other unfortunate things but whatever. This is MY BLOG, MY THOUGHTS, I write it about how I FEEL at the time, and after i seave it, it doesn't generally change.
Will is an amazing guy. He knows alot about alot, and I'm glad to have him around.
Dustin, Nate and Eastman are on the way to save me from myself.
Wish them luck
<3Ina
