...This Isn't Just The Story Of A Girl...
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I HATE GRAPHICS BLOCK...So, I slept through my first and only class today and I had to come to the school anyways because that's where my drivers ed teacher is picking me up. The weather is shit...which isn't a surprise, and I have to work tonight. On top of all that wonderful stuff, I've got graphics block.
I was picked as the graphic designer for our news program. I got the easiest graphic out of the way first and now I'm stuck on lower thirds and the logo. I guess I'm trying to be too fancy for news, but whatever. It's not like it's actually going on TV, its just for class, but I want a good mark.
Still drama putting strain on my relationship with Matt, turns out all his friends hate me cause his friends girlfriend has gone certifiably insane. I'm not even kidding you, she's off her fucking rocker, and on top of that it's like shes back in elementary school, shes reverted further back from high school. That being said, I'm not going Friday because I've stopped caring. His friends can believe whatever they want. I'm done playing games.
I HATE GRAPHICS BLOCK...and now I'm going to search for food.
<3Ina
Monday, January 19, 2009
Oxymoronic isn't it...Social Norms + Status Quo= what the fuck? Well, more like = people with one mind, and style. Conformity? I THINK SO! If I told you to raise your left hand in the air, would you? Probably. Now, if i said afterwards "Raise your right hand if you think for yourself"...would you? Probably. Oxymoronic isn't it? If i tell you to raise your right hand if you think for yourself and you do it...it's not really thinking for yourself. If I was in the fashion pages in Vogue, or hanging on the walls of Urban Trade, Abercrombie and Fitch Old Navy or American eagle would you dress like me to be socially accepted? Probably.
Ever notice two people who went to high school together and hung out in different groups turn into two different people? What about how the kids who hung out in the same group all turn out the same...for the most part. I feel sorry for those stuck in the high school roundabout. They'll never get out. They're afraid of change, so they'll keep seeing the same people, stay in the same city, date people from high school...possibly marry them, but whatever. I'm one of those people who'll laugh when reality's brass knuckles knocks their teeth out. It's a pretty graphic image if you think about it...but about 98% of people like them deserve it.
I don't think I'm "Status quo" but I very well could be. One reason my boyfriend likes me so much is because I'm DIFFERENT. I'm not like those girls. If he wanted a girl like them, he wouldn't be with me. I guess it's time for them to get used t it because for the time being, I'm not going anywhere. So stop harassing my boyfriend and stop making him feel like he has to choose. Grow the fuck up, high school was over three years ago. This is the real would, you're not popular out here, your word is not law, people don't respect you unless you earn it, complain all you want, noone cares, it's just annoying, and bitch, you're not getting what you want. See you Friday...unless i find something better to do.
<3Ina
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Women bring drama. That's why I hate them....Fuck drama. I hate it. Women bring drama. That's why I hate them. There has been a huge increase in drama over the last little bit...and it all had to do with new years...and my blog. I knew I should've stayed home, but noooo...I wanted to go see Matt. I'm trying to think if all this drama was worth it. In some cases it is, but in this case I'm thinking home would have been a better choice...a much much much better choice. I've resulted to hiding under my covers and crying at night because what's going on it seriously hurting me and my relationship and if it continues they (even though some of them could care less about our relationship) might actually get what they want. The last thing I ever wanted to do was make Matt's life harder then it had to be....that's blowing up in my face. I know I don't want it to end, but it may have too if we can't get through this..it's mostly outside influence that's making things tough, and they either don't care and are fully aware they're doing this, or don't know how much trouble it's causing.
Apparently my blog is causing trouble too. I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE I HAVE TO WRITE THIS AGAIN! IT'S THE FOURTH OR FIFTH TIME I'VE HAD TO DO THIS! IF YOU'RE GOING TO TAKE MY BLOG PERSONALLY...STOP FUCKING READING IT! There's a reason it's my blog and not yours. If you got the website from my msn, good for you. I don't care. Just understand it's a place for me to vent and if I wanted to tell these things to you face, I would or will.
I'm going to go be a shut in because the situation has upset me as much as it has. I hope you're happy, and you should bloody fucking well know who you are.
<3Ina
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
JODI'S GOT A GUN!Holy....fucking...tired. I wish I could get a normal sleep schedule worked out....that would be awesome. Then maybe I'd be able to concentrate on whats going on. Maybe if the stupid bus strike ended I wouldn't have to be at the school every Wednesday morning at 7:30 when class starts a fucking 9!
Let's talk about the bus strike. It's not over money. It's over self scheduling. SELF SCHEDULING! HOW STUPID IS THAT!? AND to make thing even more stupid...all of the bus drivers and OC Transpo administration staff want to be compensated for lost wages once the strike is over...what about all of us? The student's, the single parents, the people who get to and from work who depend on the bus, the merchants who lost sales over the holidays because government employee's were parking at the Rideau center because they had to drive into work, and the Seniors who are pretty much housebound (which isn't all bad), shouldn't we be compensated for their ignorance? And they say they're not being greedy. I want a pony. Compared the to OC staff, that seems like a fair request. AT least it could get me too and from school...although the deep freeze we've just entered may kill it.
Yesterday's greenroom drama. This Drama is brought to you by: The Algonquin College Drama Department! Being Dramatic Isn't Just For Class Anymore! So, we're cleaning up the studio, throwing out old props and such, when Jodi finds two old water guns. first people ran around the studio and played with them, then they found rubber bands and had a rubber band war. I his in the control room from most of this. Then Jodi came out of the studio with one of the water guns. It was painted black but part of the back was broken so you could see its fluorescent green interior. Anyways, she comes out with the water gun in hand and says "who wants to play mission impossible!?!" A drama kid freaks and gets security. Jodi was asked to come out into the hall by the security guard. He scans her card because a gun was reported. She was actually threw it out. Now there is more animosity between TV and drama kids because they (this one in particular that I know) can be a little...over-dramatic.
Matt's stressed out...and he's got every right to be. He's his brother's own personal limo driver because of this stupid bus strike. This sucks. The reason is because I only get to see him once a week as it is, and usually that one day seems to coincides with his limo duties. So when this happens, he won't see me at all that day, and when that happens it fucks up my schedule, like if i planned to see him and then the next day do homework, or clean it doesn't work out. He's not very good with time management, and I'm just starting to get better. Kind of. Uhm, other reasons he's stressed....Life. That unfortunate four letter word. Last night I asked him what he thought of me...and he didn't know. I showed him Joel's answer, and he said that it seemed about right. And then we pretty much argued about how he thought I was generic. I'm not generic. I guess it kinda bugged me that he couldn't tell me what he thought of me. But it could also be a good thing.
I'm going to the newsroom for some much needed catchup sleep.
<3Ina
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
I really wish I could...I can't sleep and it's driving me insane. I really wish I could... because in 14 hours I will be standing in the CTV news room watching pre-production for the 6o'clock news happen. Maybe I can't sleep because I'm nervous...I don't even know what to wear...or how to do my hair and/or make-up. Ugh, nonetheless I still need to fill out my "what job do you want" paperwork for Ron.
I want to be a producer, or maybe a director. Something high up and seriously important. I'm tired of everyone not taking me seriously and/or thinking I'm stupid. I know I have an eye for graphics...that would be great if i wanted to go into that, I just already know how to do it, and I don't want to be doing it all the time.
Anyways, I'm in love. Random, I know. I thought you should too.
<3Ina
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Women these days are so bourgeoisie...and I'm not talking the Marxist definition...Life is so much easier when you're on the outside looking in. Then you can try to say, do, think or give advice about anything without knowing the whole story or the person's thoughts, feelings or personality. Something that may be a big deal to you, may mean nothing to anyone else. I guess when you form your own opinion of someone without really getting to know them, or automatically assuming they know what they might have done wrong when to them it was a normal reaction to a fairly common situation, you shouldn't have the right to form an opinion at all.
Currently, two people are mad at me. One of them is holding a grudge from something that never really happened, or was my fault. I usually don't text people unless I'm texted first...usually. She just kind of jumped to the conclusion that I want her boyfriend...it makes me laugh. The other one has kind of assumed the same thing, which is also laughable.
Women make me laugh. We get jealous and over protective at the drop of a hat. I wonder how many women I've pissed off by talking to their boyfriends, or even hugging they're boyfriends? Insecurities a bitch, but honestly, in this situation how insecure do you have to be to assume that some girl, who is either friends with your boyfriend, or barely knows him wants him? I grew up with mostly guys as friends, so half the stuff I offend women with I have no clue I'm doing because to me, it's the norm. Whether it's pointing off the obvious, or unzipping a person's sweater when they say they're hot and they're hands are busy...to me its nothing, but I guess to other people it's offensive enough to think I'm a slut, or I want their boyfriend...then again, when you throw another girl into the mix that hates your guts for no reason, she tends to say things that are mostly untrue that makes people dislike people even more...without them checking their facts, but this is a case of "Friend vs New Girl I Barely know". Maybe I should steer clear of uptight women and their boys for a rather long time.
Women these days are so bourgeoisie...and I'm not talking the Marxist definition, I'm talking a person whose attitudes and behavior are marked by conformity to the standards and conventions of the middle class...but in this case I'm pretty sure they're being more booboisie...a class of people regarded as stupid and gullible or a segment of the general public composed of uneducated, uncultured persons.
I had to add the definitions to those because last night when I was talking to Kate and I called someone bourgeois she took at as the Marxist definition and not how I intended it.
<3Ina
Monday, January 5, 2009
I'm the only one aloud to bitch here, comprende...So, here we are, back to school. As per usual when I'm at school, I'm coming at you live from the greenroom, waiting for class to begin. Yeah, I'm that cool. Everyone is kind of spread out everywhere. We found out this morning that two kids from our class will not be returning...I'm not quite sure if they'll be missed.
So that last few days have been full of drama, starting with an uncalled for text message from someone who has serious jealousy issues (which I'm guilty of as well) but she mis-projects her anger onto people who don't deserve it, maybe she should get a blog, and my ex continuing to text message my sisters, and them not telling him to fuck off. I found out he invited one to a bar, they've made it quite clear they don't want my sloppy seconds, and they don't know why he still talk to them. If they really wanted it to stop they would add him to their block list on msn and stop answering his texts...its really that simple.
So, some of you may have noticed that I changed the setting so that anonymous users can't post messages anymore, there is one user who posts anonymously that likes to insult my intelligence, say I'm full of shit, and imply I'm a slut...or any synonym of the word, I'll probably change it back within the next few minutes because you can't please everyone, and that person has way too much time on his or her hands, they obviously don't read my blog, they just comment. So, whoever you are, get a life and stay of my blog if you're just going to bitch...its my blog, I'm the only one aloud to bitch here, comprende?!
<3Ina
