...This Isn't Just The Story Of A Girl...
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
What if = DepressedFucking Christ...this morning I didn't even want to get up, because frankly...it doesn't feel like its worth it. Obviously I'm up now...I just haven't left my bed. I'm tired, depressed, scared, alone and extremely unhappy. My best friend is halfway across the world, my ex boyfriend is camping for the week...and i still want him back so this feels like maybe we're taking 2 steps back, because what if he changes him mind from the way he acted last Friday? What if he gets completely over me? What if he finds someone while he's up there? What if he isn't even thinking of me and doesn't care about me anymore? See...then I think life really isn't worth the hurt. Now I'm not saying I'd kill myself..I'd just be even more upset and stop eating and sleeping and all that jazz again. There's still 6 days til he comes back...yesterday felt long enough...I miss him...and 6 more days is just going to make how I'm feeling worse.
fuck...
<3(?) Ina
